Creating a Love that isn't real...

Have you ever developed a crush on someone you didn't even know?
I do it a lot.

On my birthday I met a boyshape and somehow ending up exchanging numbers with him. Couldn't believe my luck. We text a lot over the next couple of days but then it ended. He stopped replying.

I text him a few weeks ago to wish him Happy New Year but he didn't know who I was. He obviously deleted my number.

I just started up a new blog elsewhere (Sorry Blogspot) and I imported my hotmail contacts only to discover he has a blog there also. After a quick peek and learning that he is in a band, sings and writes poetry...I feel crushy all over again but how do you crush on a stranger without seeming like a big fat stalker...?
I guess I shall just have to ignore him forever.

Love and Robots.
xoxo

And So You're Back...From Outer Space...

Yes, that's right...I'm back in the mos glorious city in the world!!

Oh no, wait...I'm in Salford.

Christmas is over and once again I have chosen to leave my family behind and live in a murky, damp infused flat in this glum city. I must admit, it does look a little nicer covered in eight inches of snow but overall...it's still Salford.

Expect more frequent updates from me now, including the journey of my new diet... ooh, how exciting!

But for now, I must sign off...I need to tidy.

Love and snowflakes.
xxx

4am and I can't sleep...

It's 4am and I cant sleep. The room is too dark to worry about perfect typing and punctuation right now so please excuse me for that.

I keep worrying. Worrying about strange things that have never occured to me before until just now...
it has always been a dream of mine to live in Brighton, I adore the place and always have since my first visit when I was 4. It has never come to mind that I would not live there after university.
However, now I am getting older I have started to become incredibly over-protective of my mum and find it harder and harder to leave her. When I have a baby (in around 6 years) I want her to be there all the time, helping me, looking after us both. But If I am living at the bottom of the country, how is that going to be possible? Now I'm lying in bed thinking what I can do...let's move the whole family down to Brighton just so my parents can be there to look after me. But I'm an adult now, I have to look after myself. But I don't want to abandon my mum, she needs me and I need her. I need Vati too but I guess mums are different in a way, you can't leave them.

Anyway, I've rambled it down for now so it's out there and maybe I can sleep for a while. I'm so tired.

Goodnight.
xx